BolinPsychedIn

Damn it I have missed writing on here. Multi-tasking is not my forte, tunnel vision is, but man, I’m having to learn to take on tasks by the dozen. 

My daughter, for the first time in her 7 months here, came down with a brief illness. Most humans are prepared for this, I was not. Oh Jesus, I wish you all could have seen me in my best of hysteric fits throughout the last week or more. I was calling the doctor, looking online, buying every thermometer I could find, I was a mess.

For the first time, I truly felt different, something changed within me. There is not a word or phrase to describe the helplessness felt over being unable to “fix” what was ailing Layla.

Now on the other side of this past week’s drama, I can officially say I am not anywhere near the selfish bitch I have been all of my life, hallelujah.  I now know & hold unconditional love for another human being, outside of myself. 

You should see this 7 month old’s smile.